It has been a trying year for all of us so far. I have so many friends and family that have lost family members, are having financial problems, health problems and so on. It is hard to keep ones head up and think positively.
I made a promise to myself at the beginning of the year that I was going to try my best to start each day with a positive thought, and for the most part I feel like I have done that. I do have days that I just feel like there is no point, but I snap out of that feeling as fast as I can and get on with my day. I have found myself feeling very sad lately. Have you ever felt sadness but you were not sure where the sadness is coming from? I wonder if this is just a part of suffering from Depression. I believe that all feelings have a root or cause. Just like all pain has an origin, so do all feelings. So where is the sadness coming from? My relationship with Deshawn is getting stronger every day. We are the united front, so that's not it....I am doing well in school, my weight is dropping, and for the most part all my needs are being met, so why so sad?
I was watching the final Oprah show today and she said that she found happiness in making others happy and helping them to improve their own lives. I asked once how one finds self worth and the answer I got most was by helping others find their worth. I feel like I do that to the best of my ability but when your help is refused, what do you do then? How do you get past that rejected feeling when you know what you are offering another is just what they need but they choose not to take it. Oprah said that when some one does not want what she has to offer she gives her blessing and walks away. I can't seem to walk away...Take my help and advise Damn it!!! So now my question is...if finding your self worth is in help others find theirs and they refuse your help...what then? I'm not sure I like the thought of my self worth being wrapped up in someone else...maybe I am missing something. I understand that I am responsible for my own self worth, but if I don't know what it looks like or feels like how can I find it?
I made a promise to myself at the beginning of the year that I was going to try my best to start each day with a positive thought, and for the most part I feel like I have done that. I do have days that I just feel like there is no point, but I snap out of that feeling as fast as I can and get on with my day. I have found myself feeling very sad lately. Have you ever felt sadness but you were not sure where the sadness is coming from? I wonder if this is just a part of suffering from Depression. I believe that all feelings have a root or cause. Just like all pain has an origin, so do all feelings. So where is the sadness coming from? My relationship with Deshawn is getting stronger every day. We are the united front, so that's not it....I am doing well in school, my weight is dropping, and for the most part all my needs are being met, so why so sad?
I was watching the final Oprah show today and she said that she found happiness in making others happy and helping them to improve their own lives. I asked once how one finds self worth and the answer I got most was by helping others find their worth. I feel like I do that to the best of my ability but when your help is refused, what do you do then? How do you get past that rejected feeling when you know what you are offering another is just what they need but they choose not to take it. Oprah said that when some one does not want what she has to offer she gives her blessing and walks away. I can't seem to walk away...Take my help and advise Damn it!!! So now my question is...if finding your self worth is in help others find theirs and they refuse your help...what then? I'm not sure I like the thought of my self worth being wrapped up in someone else...maybe I am missing something. I understand that I am responsible for my own self worth, but if I don't know what it looks like or feels like how can I find it?
